My first entry.
You're reading this, then you either have OCD or know someone who has it.
If you want to know what OCD is all about, you may get some books out there, some are good, some are not that good, but all will tell what OCD is.
If you want self help book, there are those too. Again some are good and some are not that good. I've bought plenty of these books. the books are generally OKAY, but the point is, is it okay ENOUGH for us?
I've tried almost all. I was on Chlomipramin for a very heavy dose. 600mg, but yet, I'm still the very same person. I've tried Prozac, Venlafaxine and a few others. I am still the same person. I'm trying CBT on my own. That's Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. It works sometimes.
Ok, what is this blog all about?
I guess i just want to share my experience with you fellow OCDians. I am probably one of those drug-resistant patients. So I have to find some other ways to continue living.
I've accepted that I have OCD. It took me quite sometimes to do so, and it took a lot longer time for my family to accept it. That's the first step, and believe me, that's the most important step. Infact I believe, nothing will work until you've mastered this first step.
The second step. This is the difficult part, to distinguish between OCD and reality. They seem to be the same thing. I'm still in this step. I accepted that I've OCD a long time ago. You need help. We simply can't do this alone. I'm lucky to have a brother who understands and tries t help as much as he can. the challenge ir forme to stop seeking his help. And that's tough.
I'm married with two beautiful children. My wife despise me for my OCD, despite knowing that I had it before we got married. They say OCD is hereditary. I'm praying to God Almighty that my children will be free from it.
You've read this far. You're really interested to know more then. Ok, I am a washer, and also have scrupuluosity. I am a hoarder too, but not to such great extent. I used to be a checker, but that somehow vanished after my first drug intake, some 16 years ago.
I have to get back to work, will continue some other time.
